First off, I feel like a huge jerk and I’m so so sorry.
Those of you who follow BeanFiddler may remember I struggle with fibromyalgia, amongst other health issues. For the past year and a half, I’ve been battling the most severe flare up I’ve experienced in almost 20 years. Those of you who have no personal experience with fibromyalgia may have a difficult time understanding the challenge of functioning under these conditions. To complicate the situation even further, early this year I developed carpal tunnel syndrome and tendinitis in the wrists and elbows of both arms. I’m not even going to get into my new photophobia issues. The bottom line is that I hit a wall and stopped functioning beyond the bare minimum.
I know I totally dropped the ball and saying sorry is insufficient, but that’s all I can do at this point. I wish I’d handled things differently, but I didn’t.
I also wish I could tell you that I’m all better now and ready to jump back in the BeanFiddler saddle. Unfortunately, everything is not all unicorns and rainbows (Hell, I’d settle for just one of the two at this point!) My health has continued to deteriorate and typing even a few words is excruciating. I’m dictating this using Dragon Dictate, which I’m hoping will eventually allow me to work on the computer again. However, I’m nowhere near that point.
(On a side note, Dragon makes me want to smash things. It shows great promise but has a very steep learning curve, as well a mind of its own. If anyone has experience using Dragon on a Mac and has any helpful hints, please share!)
I have high hopes that my health will improve and I’ll be able to get back to testing and writing about sex toys in the near future.
I know I’ve been in absentia for months now but I will try to do better. If you have questions or want to contact me, please comment on this post (I am totally overwhelmed by email right now) and I will try to check in at least once a week.
I hope all is well in your lives and I hope to be back with you soon. I know it doesn’t make up for my disappearance, but our Halloween theme is totally awesome, right?!